Monday, January 30, 2006

Psalm 139:1-5,14-18

O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away. You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD. You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head.
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You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous – and how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God! They are innumerable! I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up in the morning, you are still with me!

Sunday, January 29, 2006

women's tea


This afternoon was so amazing. We showed up at this Crusade tea for women. I felt really undressed since all the girls were fancy. But the staff who shared was just amazing. The things I've been dealing with since starting the Bible study Believing God she just managed to hit on the head. It's so reassuring to hear how others, that I tend to look up to, deal with the same issues and how we can provide encouragement and accountabiltity for one another. She shared about overcoming perfectionism(yeah, big time) and being a people pleaser(guilty again) and turning God/faith into a checklist(YES). Just the way she shared the truths God showed her over the summer felt like she was explaining the point I have reached in my walk. For example, not asking God for anything I couldn't handle. So just in case God didn't show for whatever reason, it would be taken care of, by me, not God. So then doesn't that mean I'm not relying on God? And the fact of not taking risks. I won't try new things because if I end up not being good or successful, then I'm not perfect, so I'm just stuck in this routine. I have such a long way to go in developing true faith. I'm afraid of what I need to leave behind but faithful enough to be excited because I know God has so much more that I could imagine.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

I made it through the day

Today was very stressful and busy. I stayed up late studying and slept for four hours. Pretty respectable but apparently not enough. First, I had my physics midterm which went well. We get to use a 4x6 card of notes and formulas so its hard to be completely lost. I just hope its not false confidence until I get the test back. Work was normal besides the rain which makes deliveries annoying. Math was so bad. I am scared to get that test back. There were only six questions which was good since I was expecting more. But the problem was I only knew how to do half of them. There was a tank problem with the salt, the mixing, and in/out rates that just mess me up, even though he warned us I still couldn't work it out. I was struggling through the last differential equation, and it felt like my brain just turned off. Partial credit? Maybe? oh well. My group finished our portfolio after meeting twice: this afternoon and tonight. At least its good and completed, so I can go to sleep now.

Isaiah 45:18-19,22-25

For the LORD is God, and he created the heavens and earth and put everything in place. He made the world to be lived in, not to be a place of empty chaos."I am the LORD," he says, "and there is no other. I publicly proclaim bold promises. I do not whisper obscurities in some dark corner so no one can understand what I mean. And I did not tell the people of Israel to ask me for something I did not plan to give. I, the LORD, speak only what is true and right.
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Let all the world look to me for salvation! For I am God; there is no other. I have sworn by my own name, and I will never go back on my word: Every knee will bow to me, and every tongue will confess allegiance to my name." The people will declare, "The LORD is the source of all my righteousness and strength." And all who were angry with him will come to him and be ashamed. In the LORD all the generations of Israel will be justified, and in him they will boast.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

what?!?

PEJA FOR ARTEST??? What can Geoff be thinking? I will trust my GM who has worked spectacular trades in the past...but I really have to question picking up a guy who set the record for flagrant fouls. And was suspended for basically an entire season because he punched a fan. Wow, not the typical image of the upstanding citizen Kings player, but I will let Ron prove himself.

Mark 9:23-24


"What do you mean, 'If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes." The father instantly replied, "I do believe, but help me not to doubt!"

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

sad news

I just talked to my parents, and they had to put one of our dogs Bentley to sleep. The vet said Bentley had three slipped discs in his lower back with two of them rubbing directly bone on bone, as if he had been hit by a car. My mom said he had been limping and acting abnormal since Sunday night, but things got really bad today. He bit my brother's hand this morning and went for Dad's jugular when they were getting ready to go to the vet. She said he was in so much pain, and surgery probably wouldn't ease any of it. The vet said he could have injured himself, or it could be hereditary. Or most likely, since he just wandered into our lives malnourished and frightened, we don't know if he was beaten or how bad he was treated. I feel sad because I'm not there, because Mom has lost her buddy, and most of all I feel guilty for being thankful that I live on my own when my family really wants me there at times like this.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Romans 4:23-24


Now this wonderful truth – that God declared him to be righteous – wasn't just for Abraham's benefit. It was for us, too, assuring us that God will also declare us to be righteous if we believe in God, who brought Jesus our Lord back from the dead.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

I never knew that...

"The Bic Pen Company now sells over 3 million pens per day."
-Materials and Design
I'm actually learning cool stuff!

who knew?

I found a quote in my materials reading that I loved. Never would have guessed it was this interesting of a book.
"A home with books is like a house without windows."

are you ready for love? by audio adrenaline

Broken widow
And fatherless child
I've turned my back on you
I missed the point here
I over analyzed it
Somewhere I missed the clues
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Are you ready for love?
Are ready for real emotion?
Are you too comfortable to join the revolution?
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Oh, this love is revolutionary
When it's inside of you
It's just so simple
I never realized it
I never had a clue
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I fall down
I fall down to my knees
Fall down and weep
With joy

Hebrews 11:6

So, you see, it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that there is a God and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Kings Lick Lakers in OT

that's what I like to see!! kings.com

Monday, January 16, 2006

montano de oro

It was so cold and windy at Montano de Oro yesterday afternoon. But we went anyways since it wasn't raining anymore. I had so much fun exploring and running around everywhere. It feels good to act like a kid every once in a while. So here's my pics of the ocean and tide pools!















I found a starfish!















Mussels!















Geology is cool.






























An anemonemone. Amnemonemomne. -Nemo



















All the little snail shells are actually turban snails that move around in the water. I wasn't expecting them to be alive kinda trippy.















crazy lighting on the water from the sun

better days by the goo goo dolls

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
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So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
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And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
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So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
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I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
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So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

stargazing

We actually went out tonight and climbed the P. It was a really clear night, but a full moon so it made the sky bright, which was nice when we struggled to the top. There were seven of us, and I stayed until I got too cold under my THREE layers. On the way down I twisted my ankle, but it seems good now. I must have walked it off or something. It was fun to do a crazy fun random activity just for the adventure of it. While getting to know your friends better- ah, good clean fun is the best!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

wasn't MLK Jr. awesome?!

"If a man is called to be a streetsweeper, he should sweep streets even as Michelangelo painted, or Beethoven composed music, or Shakespeare wrote poetry. He should sweep streets so well that all the host of heaven and earth will pause to say, here lived a great streetsweeper who did his job well.
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Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.
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We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools.
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In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
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Everybody can be great because anybody can serve. You don't have to have college degree to serve. You don't have to make your subject and verb agree to serve. You only need a heart full of grace. A soul generated by love.
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Our scientific power has outrun our spiritual power. We have guided missiles and misguided men.
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The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.
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Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.
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If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live."
-Martin Luther King Jr.

its finally the weekend

I saw Glory Road tonight! In the Fremont! And we saw everyone at Firestone's right before. We ran into at least four friends and met new people too. The movie was really awesome, and I love those old theaters. Any kind of good basketball and inspriational material makes it an instant favorite for me. I couldn't believe the racism they went through just for playing a sport. Mankind can be so cruel. Anyways, the movie ends in a really feel good type of way. A few things I noticed...Don Haskins was actually in the movie as the gas station attendant, the actors really look like the original team members, and the angle of shot when White steps out-of-bounds is really great for people that see the details and for the sake of cinematography. Besides Glory Road, today was less than exciting. My lab was boring, my statics "pop quiz" that I put effort into studying for was a group quiz, and work was, well, work meaning coursepacks. I went to Staples to make a return and picked up a portfolio and tape dispenser and had to go grocery shopping since I ran out of oj. I ran errands with one of our neighbors which made it entertaining to say the least. Anyways, picking out a portfolio just reminded me how much I desire to get an internship and eventually full-time job as a professional engineer. But I trust that God will not misuse my love for corporate America. Another random thought...I am amazed by people with powerful eyes. You know the kind that just pull you in to their thoughts that seem to communicate without even speaking. Eyes are windows to the soul, right? yeah, powerful eyes.

Monday, January 09, 2006

torn between two desires

Over break I applied for summer project to East Asia, New Orleans, New York, or Japan. I was really interested in going to East Asia after a couple Crusades when a student shared about his summer and one of the missionaries visited and after going to the summer projects dinner. At ej05 God just spoke to me about the plans I was refusing to give up regarding my summers, so I turned it over to Him. Lately, I've been thinking about going into ministry after I graduate, like as a Crusade intern. I would love to be in a full-time ministry position especially on a college campus. But then I would be giving up corporate America. I would also love to go to work every morning in a business suit, driving a Mini, living in a beautiful apartment, and researching new technology. That's why I went off to school for goodness sakes! I just hope I fall into the right job at the right time without giving up something that I love.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

He's watching

My thoughts were kind of drifting during Celebration tonight, and I was thinking about going to the movies last night. And how fun it is to watch a friend see one of your favorite movies for their first time. And how cute it is for someone to watch your reaction during a scene to see if you get scared or crack up laughing. Then it hit me. God is just as, if not more, fascinated by my life, circumstances, and reactions. That concept is so comforting and brings me such a peace inside my soul. I love the fact that He fixes His full attention on my response to situations. Can't you just picture it?

its been a while

I haven't felt much like organizing my thoughts lately. Weird that I would procrastinate on procrastinating.
Classes started last Tuesday. Hopefully, its a good schedule with work and extra-curriculars. I'm taking statics, linear analysis, physics, and my major materials class. The professors haven't turned evil yet so things seem to be going well.
Yesterday was crazy fun. It was my roommates birthday so we went to Pismo to try out an Italian place but it was closed so we went to Splash(yummy). We met up with a bunch of friends and had a bonfire, football game, and sumo wrestling. It was fun beyond words. I had sand all over and woke up sore from running in the sand. We all went to Margie's for dinner and saw Munich. The movie was so intense but really good. Now, I still want to see Glory Road and Memoirs of a Geisha.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

funny video

this guy is amazing. and you'll never guess where I found the link...well until I tell you. on the crusade staff page. crazy
http://www.hugi.is/hahradi/bigboxes.php?box_id=51208&f_id=681

1 John 1:6-7

"So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness. We are not living in the truth. But if we are living in the light of God's presence, just as Christ is, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from every sin."

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

the year is 1905- one hundred years ago.

one of those chain emails but pretty interesting...

What a difference a century makes!
Here are some of the U.S. statistics for the year 1905:
The average life expectancy in the U.S. was 47 years.
Only 14 percent of the homes in the U.S. had a bathtub.
Only 8 percent of the homes had a telephone.
A three-minute call from Denver to New York City cost eleven dollars.
There were only 8,000 cars and only 144 miles of paved roads in the U.S.
The maximum speed limit in most cities was 10 mph.
Alabama, Mississippi, Iowa, and Tennessee were each more heavily populated than California.
With a mere 1.4 million people, California was only the 21st most populous state in the Union.
The tallest structure in the world was the Eiffel Tower.
The average wage in the U.S. was 22 cents per hour.
The average U.S. worker made between $200 and $400 per year.
A competent accountant could expect to earn $2,000 per year, a dentist $2,500 per year, a veterinarian between $1,500 and$4,000 per year, and a mechanical engineer about $5,000 per year.
More than 95 percent of all births in the U.S. took place at home.
Ninety percent of all U.S. doctors had no college education.
Instead, they attended so-called medical schools, many of which were condemned in the press and by the government as"substandard."
Sugar cost four cents a pound.
Eggs were fourteen cents a dozen.
Coffee was fifteen cents a pound.
Most women washed their hair only once a month, and they used borax or egg yolks for shampoo.
Canada passed a law that prohibited poor people from entering into their country for any reason.
Five leading causes of death in the U.S. were:
1. Pneumonia and influenza
2. Tuberculosis
3. Diarrhea
4. Heart disease
5. Stroke
The American flag had 45 stars.-Arizona, Oklahoma, New Mexico, Hawaii, and Alaska hadn't been admitted to the Union yet.
The population of Las Vegas, Nevada, was only 30!
Crossword puzzles, canned beer, and iced tea hadn't been invented yet.
There was no Mother's Day or Father's Day.
Two out of every ten U.S. adults couldn't read or write.
Only 6 percent of all Americans had graduated from high school.
Marijuana, heroin, and morphine were all available over the counter at the local corner drugstores. Back then a pharmacist said, "Heroin clears the complexion, gives buoyancy to the mind, regulates the stomach and bowels, and is, in fact, a perfect guardian of health."(Shocking!)Eighteen percent of households in the U.S. had at least one full-time servant or domestic help.
There were about 230 reported murders in the entire U.S.
Try to imagine what it may be like in another 100 years!