Sunday, October 07, 2007

not perfect

So I haven't been reading the Bible. Not on my own. Or on a regular basis. This didn't used to be such a struggle for me so its really humbling to have to tell the blog world. The bad part is I haven't found the piece of motivation to get me to open the Book up again. And I feel a little guilty for not feeling guilty. Is that possible?
The part I'm wondering about is the distance I'm feeling. I mean there is always distance because I'm a pretty screwed up sinner who can't even remember, much less follow, the only two commandments He's given me. But is there really a spiritual distance? Or is it just me feeling that my attempts are less than perfect?