Let's summarize life as of late...
Filing a claim stinks.
Wakeboarding is amazing fun. I got up on my first try! It helps that I snowboard. I think. A little sunburnt and very sore. Camping was different than I expected but awesome. Just need to keep in mind willingness and availability.
Got back Sunday noonish. Had a refreshing Jamba smoothie. Took a nap. Watched some Grey's Anatomy season 1 with housemate and friends. Surprisingly enjoyed it, minus the blood parts. The one I liked was about adult responsibility. How much it can stink beyond belief. And all the benefits. I agreed with most of her reasons. The only exception was about sleeping around. That comes with the responsibility of marriage and even then its not "around" anyways. It was just the fact that I've had to deal with new adult challenges like accidents and auto insurance and estimates and immense frustration.
Tonight, the Irvine staff came to hang out in slo for a couple days. We got grub at Firestone's, walked around downtown, saw Little Miss Sunshine. It is great-unexpected and hilarious and adorable and so relateable(is this even a word?).
Sprite and cinnamon raisin toast is not a good combination for a midnight snack.
I am almost afraid my musical tastes are growing too close to the hippie days of my father.
Getting ready for my cousin's wedding is taking too much effort, shopping, and money.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
nice?
Why is that since I am small, quiet and quick to smile that people assume I am nice? I mean, its all well and good complementary-wise but something just seems wrong with the logic. I could be really really good at pretending. Seriously, its the quiet ones you have to watch out for. And the other problem I have with it is the meaning behind the word. Nice. Its just too weak sounding. As if I'm a pushover or spineless or unassuming or undemanding. The list goes on. I picture there being a big difference between being genuine, polite, selfless over nice.
Oh well, what can I say, its been a stressful day. I just need to focus my energy somewhere else.
Oh well, what can I say, its been a stressful day. I just need to focus my energy somewhere else.
its just a car
All I needed was orange juice, milk, and dishwasher soap. Then I get hit. lame. At least we have clean dishes now.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
immutability
Newsflash: God doesn't change. I wish I could fully grasp that concept. That He is the same God of my life here as He was this summer in East Asia. Maybe that's why I've had so much to regret from the last two weeks. But it also happens to be a fact that God is still my Dad. That He still uses my life in His greater purpose. That He still works in awesome ways to bring people into His kingdom. That even in ridiculous circumstances He finds a way to protect His children.
I suppose now there should be an application part of this realization. But this is where I get stuck. I can't live the same way I did this summer. With only one responsibility. Its basically impossible. At the same time I can't live the same way I did before project either. And then comes the part about my fam(actual and project). Hopefully, ppd will get better from here.
I suppose now there should be an application part of this realization. But this is where I get stuck. I can't live the same way I did this summer. With only one responsibility. Its basically impossible. At the same time I can't live the same way I did before project either. And then comes the part about my fam(actual and project). Hopefully, ppd will get better from here.
Friday, August 11, 2006
driving again
The combination of:
stereo at 17
the Fray CD
windows down
after twilight
country roads at 55 mph
would almost be enough to get over ppd. Probably the only time that I would think to myself, "If I only had a convertible."
stereo at 17
the Fray CD
windows down
after twilight
country roads at 55 mph
would almost be enough to get over ppd. Probably the only time that I would think to myself, "If I only had a convertible."
Monday, June 19, 2006
homesick
I know. How can this be possible if I am actually home? I'm homesick for slo. Or maybe sick of home. Your pick. Its been a week and not that I hate it or anything, I'm just ready for adventure! I've had a chance to catch up with a bunch of friends, mostly by eating out at BJ's. Its great to spend time with the fam and get ready for the next six weeks. But I've been stagnant. And I miss my friends. Mostly, those people that I didn't expect either. The bummer part is talking to them just seems to make it worse. So, this is my last post for probably the longest that I will ever be away. Without phone. Or Internet. Pray for us.
"Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age."
-Matthew 28:19-20
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
buying cards
Its hard to put into words the thoughts that were running through my mind in Walmart of all places. I was picking out a Father's Day card for dad. And you know how they section the cards off into grandpa/dad/husband type of categories. Well, its sad that I no longer buy a card for grandpa. I mean I was at least picking out one for a while, and its been over a year now. Its just hard to comprehend the way that people come into your life, no matter the influence they have had, but simply because you are related by blood, you miss them. I hardly ever saw or even spoke to him, there is still an emptiness.
I truly love and appreciate my family, even though I enjoy living away from home. But I would be devastated to lose them. I just don't think I would be able to handle it. Maybe that's the hard part. Knowing that while I lost a grandfather, that meant someone lost their father or husband. Man, death is so hard to comprehend and accept. But then again, "Christians never say goodbye." -C.S. Lewis
I truly love and appreciate my family, even though I enjoy living away from home. But I would be devastated to lose them. I just don't think I would be able to handle it. Maybe that's the hard part. Knowing that while I lost a grandfather, that meant someone lost their father or husband. Man, death is so hard to comprehend and accept. But then again, "Christians never say goodbye." -C.S. Lewis
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
dear Lord...
So this is what sophomore slump is. Too cool for school. And then I get my first D. wow, I feel horrible.
But I'm no longer a sophomore so I guess that means no more excuses.
But I'm no longer a sophomore so I guess that means no more excuses.
Friday, June 09, 2006
last night in slo...
Something weird about getting ready to leave this place for a while. More so than last year at least. Probably because of my situation with the dorms and people. It was so sick of it and ready to leave. And just get away from everything. Most likely, it was the best thing I could do since I came back excited with high expectations. This year turned out differently than I had pictured in my brain. But God is funny like that. He really likes surprises.
I am so grateful to be out of school for the summer. Ce was killer. That test was so insane. And everyone in the silo for two and a half hours. Then the guy who farted. haha, oh man. There was lots of clapping. No joke. English should be pretty good. My paper ended up taking twice as long as I wanted it to but its over. Physics, blah. I have not tested very well, at all. He has been gracious with the curve though. Its sad that I would rely on it. And mate. Glad thats over with, especially with the debate. People can be so irritating. Its hard to work in a group where everyone has different objectives. It just splits the group and causes tension. Debating was one of the most stressful, nervous things I have done in a while. Its over and done with. Its not up to me anymore so I have just got to put it all behind me.
Last night. Feels really weird. Especially thinking that I am not coming back to cerro. We just moved in a few months ago, right? Feels like a week ago. Although I am excited about our house for next year. It is going to be insane. When we went out to dinner, it was strange thinking that I can't enjoy the coastal sunsets for a couple months. I should be honest and admit that sunsets aren't the only things I will miss about slo, mostly my friends. The people that I have gotten close to this year, the acquaintances that have become good friends, and all those people I want to get to know better.
And this summer. Where to begin... It is going to be amazing. I am really expecting the unexpected from God. I've hit this wall where I feel like I can't move forward, and I am too stubborn to look behind me. So, in a word, complacent. Even though that is so hard to admit. Picniking will most likely be one of the best things I will do in my life, but right now it seems so surreal. I have such a long way to go, in faith, relationships, everything. But I have this feeling that God will hit me with the truth while I am overseas. Not too hard but just enough.
I am so grateful to be out of school for the summer. Ce was killer. That test was so insane. And everyone in the silo for two and a half hours. Then the guy who farted. haha, oh man. There was lots of clapping. No joke. English should be pretty good. My paper ended up taking twice as long as I wanted it to but its over. Physics, blah. I have not tested very well, at all. He has been gracious with the curve though. Its sad that I would rely on it. And mate. Glad thats over with, especially with the debate. People can be so irritating. Its hard to work in a group where everyone has different objectives. It just splits the group and causes tension. Debating was one of the most stressful, nervous things I have done in a while. Its over and done with. Its not up to me anymore so I have just got to put it all behind me.
Last night. Feels really weird. Especially thinking that I am not coming back to cerro. We just moved in a few months ago, right? Feels like a week ago. Although I am excited about our house for next year. It is going to be insane. When we went out to dinner, it was strange thinking that I can't enjoy the coastal sunsets for a couple months. I should be honest and admit that sunsets aren't the only things I will miss about slo, mostly my friends. The people that I have gotten close to this year, the acquaintances that have become good friends, and all those people I want to get to know better.
And this summer. Where to begin... It is going to be amazing. I am really expecting the unexpected from God. I've hit this wall where I feel like I can't move forward, and I am too stubborn to look behind me. So, in a word, complacent. Even though that is so hard to admit. Picniking will most likely be one of the best things I will do in my life, but right now it seems so surreal. I have such a long way to go, in faith, relationships, everything. But I have this feeling that God will hit me with the truth while I am overseas. Not too hard but just enough.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
sanuk
So I've been in major cleaning/packing mode since about 5, and I stumbled across this old tag from my sandals I got forever ago. Well, around the beginning of the school year. But the main point is that I liked what it says... so enjoy!
"Sanuk, (which means 'happy' in Thai) was started in the USA by a group of Southern Calfornia surfers who wanted something different than the status quo. Thanks to your support we are able to continue offering unique products geared for individuals like yourself. It is our hope at Sanuk that every time you slip into a pair of our sandals, you'll feel the 'Sanukness' that comes from choosing the path less traveled."
Basically the middle is a sales pitch and stuff, but I really like the part about breaking the status quo and choosing the path less traveled. But maybe that's just me.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Saturday, June 03, 2006
change that calendar already
So I finally just ripped off the month of May from my desk calendar. That just tells you how much I actually rely on it.
I have this bad habit of jotting down the most random things on it like phone numbers, to do lists on the wrong day, doodles, and quotes. I've got a pretty good collection this time. The thing is I don't feel like transferring it all to the month of June so I figured this was a good substitute.
I have this bad habit of jotting down the most random things on it like phone numbers, to do lists on the wrong day, doodles, and quotes. I've got a pretty good collection this time. The thing is I don't feel like transferring it all to the month of June so I figured this was a good substitute.
- People are everything to us because they are everything to Christ.
- Spirituality does not equal godliness.
- If its not on the menu, don't advertise it!
- Growing is learning simple truths at a deeper level than before.
So there you go. All the wisdom that I picked up from the month of May. And to finish it off, my favorite...
- Friends don't let friends eat frozen fish.
Monday, May 29, 2006
2 Timothy 4:1-5
"And so I solemnly urge you before God and before Christ Jesus – who will someday judge the living and the dead when he appears to set up his Kingdom: Preach the word of God. Be persistent, whether the time is favorable or not. Patiently correct, rebuke, and encourage your people with good teaching. For a time is coming when people will no longer listen to right teaching. They will follow their own desires and will look for teachers who will tell them whatever they want to hear. They will reject the truth and follow strange myths. But you should keep a clear mind in every situation. Don't be afraid of suffering for the Lord. Work at bringing others to Christ. Complete the ministry God has given you."
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Ecclesiastes 12:12-14
"But, my child, be warned: There is no end of opinions ready to be expressed. Studying them can go on forever and become very exhausting! Here is my final conclusion: Fear God and obey his commands, for this is the duty of every person. God will judge us for everything we do, including every secret thing, whether good or bad."
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
To my future husband, I love...
...your heart for God
...your growing faith
...the way you share with me what God is teaching you
...when you read me verses out of the Bible
...your family
...your personality
...your hair
...the way you smile at me
...the way you make me smile
...your smile
...the way you rub my shoulders when I'm cold
...your eyes
...the way your eyes light up when you laugh
...your laugh
...your sense of humor
...the way you make me laugh
...the way you make anything fun
...your expressions
...the way you walk
...your body language
...the way you dress
...when you pray
...when you sing
...when you are consumed in worship
...the way you act around other guys
...the way you treat my friends
...the way you show respect to my parents
...how you get along with my brother
...when you walk next to me and we brush shoulders
...the way you hold my gaze
...when you surprise me
...when you can reach things that I can't
...your dedication
...your cooking
...the way you help me clean up the kitchen
...your compliments
...your work ethic
...your abilities
...your gifts
...your dreams
...your smarts
...when you are serious
...when you show concern
...when we work cooperatively
...when you watch my reactions rather than the movie
...your handwriting
...when your name shows up on my cell phone
...your happiness
...the way you serve
...every moment we are together
...when you protect me
...your energy
...your thirst for adventure and wilderness
...how we get to share an adventure
...your growing faith
...the way you share with me what God is teaching you
...when you read me verses out of the Bible
...your family
...your personality
...your hair
...the way you smile at me
...the way you make me smile
...your smile
...the way you rub my shoulders when I'm cold
...your eyes
...the way your eyes light up when you laugh
...your laugh
...your sense of humor
...the way you make me laugh
...the way you make anything fun
...your expressions
...the way you walk
...your body language
...the way you dress
...when you pray
...when you sing
...when you are consumed in worship
...the way you act around other guys
...the way you treat my friends
...the way you show respect to my parents
...how you get along with my brother
...when you walk next to me and we brush shoulders
...the way you hold my gaze
...when you surprise me
...when you can reach things that I can't
...your dedication
...your cooking
...the way you help me clean up the kitchen
...your compliments
...your work ethic
...your abilities
...your gifts
...your dreams
...your smarts
...when you are serious
...when you show concern
...when we work cooperatively
...when you watch my reactions rather than the movie
...your handwriting
...when your name shows up on my cell phone
...your happiness
...the way you serve
...every moment we are together
...when you protect me
...your energy
...your thirst for adventure and wilderness
...how we get to share an adventure
Sunday, May 14, 2006
take heart
"Jesus climbed into a boat and went back across the lake to his own town. Some people brought to him a paralyzed man on a mat. Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the paralyzed man, 'Take heart, son! Your sins are forgiven.' "
-Matthew 9:1-2
"for she thought, 'If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed.' Jesus turned around and said to her, 'Daughter, be encouraged! Your faith has made you well.' And the woman was healed at that moment."
-Matthew 9:21-22
"That night the Lord appeared to Paul and said, 'Be encouraged, Paul. Just as you have told the people about me here in Jerusalem, you must preach the Good News in Rome.' "
-Acts 23:11
"They were all terrified when they saw him. But Jesus spoke to them at once. 'It's all right,' he said. 'I am here! Don't be afraid.' Then he climbed into the boat, and the wind stopped. They were astonished at what they saw. They still didn't understand the significance of the miracle of the multiplied loaves, for their hearts were hard and they did not believe."
"They were all terrified when they saw him. But Jesus spoke to them at once. 'It's all right,' he said. 'I am here! Don't be afraid.' Then he climbed into the boat, and the wind stopped. They were astonished at what they saw. They still didn't understand the significance of the miracle of the multiplied loaves, for their hearts were hard and they did not believe."
-Mark 6:49-52
"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world."
-John 16:33
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